NO TRAINING! XDD but poor juniors they have! but poor us we had ytd! hahah.
so, tit for tat.
went out today with bestie and vickyshit! :D ate at pastamania! loveeit! and we took neos! loveeit too! hahaha. sucha fun day. but it's over, so fast. :( but nvm we still got that plan coming. THE MARCH HOLS. :) went to buy those winnie the pooh soft toys! so cute. and vicky bought hairbands. and i didn't buy anything. :( saddening. nvm i'll just console myself by saying that at least i still have my money with me. hahaha. anws then saw that stupid pok partnr! PHEBE! only know how to irritate me! want me to get injured so that i don need to play agnst ur school tmr. hahaha. and she keeps pushing me round and round like nth liddat knows! hahaa. then i push her back and she hit someone then she said sorry and faster run off! hahaha. =P she too weak lahs! anws i'll be seeing her again tmr for competition. and will be playin agnst my old mates in st margs! wish us both the best! :DD and if we get into the finals it will be on the 28th. =)

next week's adventure camp! :D YAYNESS! hahaha. can't wait to be sleeping with all my mates and going rafting and dragon boating. though i'll miss my mama but it just seems so exciting. =) but there's too many rules here and there. can't they just give us abit of freedom. i wondered who made those stupid rules. we even have rules for undergarments. what crap. and i'm also dreading next week too bcos there's the netball semi's and 5 tests. :( adventure camp is like on thursday lah and we're squeezing in tests on those pathetic 3 days. SIANS. -pouts.

have 3 games this week. monday agnst cresent, wednesday agnst henderson and tomorrow agnst st margs. :( hey how i wish to help you people too but i can't. i will if i can but i don wna have scolding. haha. or you can just pray for me to play bad on that day. HAHAH. nonoo if you are my friend don do that. haa. and lucky we played well for those 2 games this week so we don have extra trainings. i just can't stand trainings. :X such a pain and torture. and my legs are aching!! LOTS. and my thumb. :( has been hurting for weeks. and i don feel like doing slope stuff tmr too. and the 1.2km run too. i just feel like sleeping. :D

`I am just feeling threatened and very sad and very insecure.
`And i dunno what to do. :'(

tired - ness. this week's torturous. always fallin aslp in class and my partner too. hahaa. you see, we both are the 'slacker type' and therefore aren't those hardworking kind of people who just mug throughout the whole of school. haha. but i have a reason but she doesn't have! =P alicia just sleeps late because she watches her stupid korean shows and see her jay chou performing while i have 2 consec days of trainin and tons of homework to do that's why i have been sleepin late often! so now do you see the difference! hahaha. :) and we dun really concentrate in class cos we go drawing in our diaries and sayin how much we all love one another (in a mutual way!) and vandalising each other's stuffs. and always hungry when the time is from 0915 to 1000. and after recess we seem tired again and we'll sleep again. hahaha. oh gosh how am i ever going to catch up? im mot even doing my homework properly. rahh and i failed my chemistry test? did i say before? i have failed two subjects and hopefully the third one will be Emath which i totally screwed up the paper and then i'll have another red mark in my card and there's ting xie today which i didn't study one single bit and that will be the fourth red mark in my report card! -gasps for air (that was sure long) and i know if i continue this way very soon i'll be seeing myself far back from the others which isn't something to be happy of or sayin off but i just can't help it cos its my personality.
now you know the reason.

I HATE TRAININGS! DX they are a torture. under the stupid hot sun we train like mad dogs and feel so pressurized to run under a certain timing and i know i'll never make it for my 2.4km timing cos its far too impossible but the stupid bitch still doesn't get the hint even after i have ran like ninety nine million billion trillion quarzillion times of 2.4km and coming back atill at that timing. can't she just realised that i have alr put in my best and its just not possible for me to reach that short timing for a 2.4km. im not some super woman who can create miracles after new year and pretend that training was just yesterday or something and that my stamina did not deprove at all. and like hello we had 2 days of consec trainings and of cos we did not enough time to recover from the previous training and that we have boring lessons before trainin in school and we'll feel so tired after that and we are dehydrating from the sun and i think my period's coming. :(

And all the feelings that I thought were gone
Came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt
But I was thinking to myself

(Truth is) I never got over you
(Truth is) Wish I was standing in her shoes
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still in love with you
(Truth is) I never should have let you go
(Truth is) And it's killing me cuz now I know
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still in love with you

boy boy boy, im starting to hate you again. you make me hate you more than ever and why? cos you're being such a bitch and keep pissing me off and playing me out and making me feel irritated and not keeping to your promises and being a hypocrite and pangsehing me and using me as a lean - on shoulder and telling me lots of lies and acting like a slut and your face just pisses me off!! please really, do something about it.

firstly i wna thank arianna for helpin me to change my blogskin. :D im stupid at these things. hahaa. thanks for wasting your time to help me make this beautiful blogskin. hahahs. but i dunno what to put for the intro. any suggestions?

hmmm. last night. was my kiddy night. WOW. i was 'the' laughing stock ytd. the whole time. so sad. :( hahaa. kidding. went out with celeste and nat again. met them later in the evenin. and reena too! :D omfg she was drop - dead georgeous..! haha. and celeste too! nat's nice too! and what was i wearing? tees and shorts. and with this alphabetical bag which made me look even kiddier. =X was soo malu kays. and nooo, i wasn't cute at all. that's my outfit that i would choose if i was half dead at home and going out later. hahaa. funny but not so funny. wanted to catch 50 first dates but cos there was two many peeps there, we only standed there for two minutes and left. hahaha. so much for watching.
went to heeren. bought studs. =D but then, buyin studs means i used my angbao money alr. :(( nvm i'l go get it back from my dad. :D hees. i don care. he better give me. haha. for my cheap ears. no, i think i have expensive ears. aiya, anw having sensitive cheap or sensitive expensive ears aren't nice. they're torturous. >:( okays where am i ranting too.

today's alr sunday. new year's going to be over. -gasps. so fast. still at the point where i wanted to buy cny clothings. now, its going to be over. sigh. school tmr. *i hate school. but valentine's tmr! yayness! cos there's presents! haha. i can rhyme stuff! :)) okay cheap thrills. hm valentine's day huh? i take back those words i've said.

Fuck will you please stop being so hypocritical.
and you say you hate hypocrites.

lalala. stop bitching about her behind her back to me and acting so nice infront of her. its so not nice you see. i'm her friend and i know you know it. but noo, you're not stopping but actually telling me more stuff that actually makes me hate you even more. stop all this fucking crap cos you'l never know one day i might just stop talking to you. yes, and i mean it. now you know who i'm talking about.

CNY. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! :) can't wait for that to come. which will be less than two hours. haha. then i'll be free! =) like finally. i can get out of your hands. wheeeee..!!! *blinks! the long waited freedom that i has always wanted! not tryin to be mean, but hey, i wasn't the one forcin everything.

You need not feel jealous.
and so do i.

lalala. feeling much better. managed to blow everything out. yupp so i'm feeling so much better now. THANKYOU DEAR! X) now i can spend my new year joyfully. sorry to those people who might be quite pissed with me. a thousand apologies.

had new year mass today! it was great! :) we were lucky the sun didn't get onto us! we were the lucky batch sitting in the shade the whole time! haha. me and celeste came late. hahaa. all thanks to --. shall not mentioned. haa. then we thought we were so late so we decided to stroll up the stupid long hill. and guess what? we weren't late. hmm? good or bad? haha. sigh the craziest part was when i was sitting with stupid grace! she's so disgusting i swear! :x she spits her orange seeds everywhere and wipe her super dirty hands on my leg! i was practically screaming and we were makin quite a big commotion so i decided to stop. and she keeps asking the stupid lion to come and scare her. and she was so proud of her $50 digi cam. like diao. -_-" BUT she's nice la. the no. 1 joker that actually brightened up my whole mass just by sitting next to her. hehh. :)

Never knew i could hold the world in my arms until i held you. =)

Let me love you.

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are, you stick around and
I just don't know why
If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

(Chorus)
You should let me love you
Let me be the one to
Give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes,
Out of control, baby you know
If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

(Chorus)

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

(Chorus)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you,
love you, love you.

This whole week has been very busy.. had like, 4 CAs? -sighs. its finally over. now i can go enjoy my new year. but just remembered. there's trainin. SHIT. my level of tiredness has gone down to -99%. rahh. not in a good mood. startin to see myself in the place where i'm unable to cope. soon i'll just fall and crash and bleed and die.

Hope i'll be in a good mood soon. went to do surveys today. kinda fun and it brought up my happiness by abit. then i realised i forgot to hand in those chem worksheets. and i realised im so so dead. so ya. will just have to pass it up to her tmr. my ears are all ready for a BIG scolding. i deserve it anyway. what about the previous post? [i lost it all.]

Sorry if i was in a damn bad mood in the past few days. i'm also pissed at myself havin this attitude and im tryin to change it. but its not working. so i'm saying sorry now and hope that you'l understand why i was so mad the other day. =( sorry dear.

i love you today as i have from the start.
and i'll love you forever, with all my heart.

"Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you fail to focus on your goals."

This phrase has inspired me lots. was impressed by how the way i looked at it and it actually made me think on a kinda positive side. but its good that i don't really have such negative thoughts anymore. i'm glad. =)

The concert band on saturday was great..! :) seriously. though i kinda slept for about 2 mins? but it was bcos i was tired, not bcos it was boring okays. the music was soothing so i closed my eyes to relax. hahaha. me and my excuses. =P hmm it was really a fun day. had trainin in the morning but it kinda passed quickly.. and like before i knew it i was in town with celeste! hahaha. she put make-up! hahahs. and oh man she looked so pretty kays. felt so malued standin beside her. :( we went to buy flowers for the band girls! and guitar girls! hahaha then met reena in town later too! omg like another chiobu?! and she was wearin heels. i looked SO SHORT standin beside her! like she was almost half a head taller than me! so saddenin! looks like i'll be stuck at this height for now. =( met pet and nat later and off we went to victoria concert hall. (haha i sound like im writin a compo or sth) saw all my pretty friends there! :) took pics with em too! went to boat quay after the concert. went to starbucks for a drink. heh. had to go home bcos it was kinda running late. boy it was really fun. =)

Went shopping on sunday. yay! :) bought CNY clothes finally! was waitin impatiently for that day to come. satisfied with what i bought and plannin to go shoppin again nxt week. yupp but i had a bad flu on sunday so if i din had the flu, the whole day would be perfect. haha.

Shit my knee's hurtin damn badly. well at least im not the only one with an injury. beitris and nat has a painful finger. hahah and (or but) it isn't anything to be happy of. =/ hope my knee recovers by tmr so that i can play properly and train properly. and to those in the team that's injured too to heal as fast as me too! haha. and hope that we can play well for tmr game agnst farfield! the netballers rock! :))

I HATE YOU. YOU BIG FAT LIAR. XP

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